Changes

So.. Update on life lately since I can NEVER post within reasonable times. lol I started ANOTHER new job! Yeah.. shocker, I know. But it is Gas City and frankly... there isn't much to choose from. Luckily, I seem to being going up in my pay grade instead of down. lol So now I work for FSSA. Yes, you probably do not know what this is, but it is Family and Social Services Administration. I process applications for Food Stamps, TANF, Healthcare, Ect. I LOVE it. Mostly I love my cubicle that I got to decorate with pics of Aiden, Andrew, Mike, family, ect. Very fun! And I get to listen to my MP3 player while I work! Awesome! lol And I get to work with my future mother-in-law and i LOVE her so that's a plus! :)

Aiden is GREAT! He started daycare and he seems to like it now. Not so much the first day, but he's used to it. lol He isn't saying to many words yet... which was starting to worry me, so I am having him go to a speech therapist. I'm sure he's fine, but it couldn't hurt to give him a little push! He is howerver, aaalllll over the place! He is a little rascal! And sooooo very sweet! I swear he is the most Loving babe EVER! lol



He couldn't decide if he should go down head first! lol

Mothers Day was great! My family came over for some Mexican that I made and Mike's mom Came over to visit. Andrew made me breakfast in bed and let me sleep as long as I wanted which was AMAZING! Lol Here's Aiden loving his car on our new deck we had built a couple months ago. He is obsessed with being outside! lol

Wow... time flies.

So, I'm sitting at work and am actually awake at 3am... which is a stretch and very unimaginable for me. I figured I would update the blog since I haven't in sooooo long! Unfortunately, I won't be able to post any pics of my little man on this one since I'm on a work computer, but I will very soon.

I find it hard to believe that two and half years ago I was married, pregnant, and living a state away from all my friends and family. It seems to unreal how fast life can change. I seem to miss Mike more and more everyday. The thought that he would have been graduating and we would have begun a somewhat normal life this summer kinda depresses me. Well, more than "kinda". lol

I wish everyday that he could have seen Aiden. That we could be a family and be happy like we were. Unfortunately, I got hit with the bad luck stick and that could not be. I do find comfort in the relationship I am in right now. Andrew wants to make a family with me and he treats Aiden like he's his own, so that is a definite plus. But he can never take the place of Aiden's Papa... never.

I just started a job at the local hospital here. Although, the hours are not ideal since they are 12 hr shifts at night, but it gets my foot in the door. Not to mention this job made me NOT want to be a nurse! That's right.... I do NOT wanna be a nurse! I actually can't stand the thought of it after seeing the crap they have to put up with. So... my new professional endeavor will be Medical Image Technology! Yes, I could be the person taking your X-rays, MRI's, CT's, ultrasounds, ect. lol Or maybe I'll just be a professional student forever since I've been doing it for so long!

It's hard being a single mother and supporting Aiden on my own. It is definitely worth it, but stress really does follow. I hope one day my life can be back to normal and the stress I have felt on a daily basis since Mike left will go away. I'm sure it will. I'm so happy to see all of Mike's dental buddies about to graduate and go to new places with their families. I wish you all the best of luck!

Until Next time (and I promise pics soon!)

Life lately

Life has been pretty interesting lately. I have been going through a lot of changes. I started a new job that I really like. I'm trying to figure out where school fits in now. It may not for a little while unfortunately.


I miss Mike a lot lately. Not that I ever stopped missing him, but the pain subsides and then seems to return at the worst times. I would give anything to redo my life in Ohio just one more time. To be able to apprecaite all the little things about him that I loved and I now miss. The way he always kissed my forehead when he came to bed after me... which was every night since he was always studying late. The way the puppies would run to the bedroom in the mornings after I would let them inside and say to go get papa. The way I wish that right now Aiden could be calling Mike Papa. I miss that smile. Oh, that was an amazing smile!! I miss sitting in his lap, bugging him while he studied just so I could spend a little time with him. I miss having a plan. Having a family. That's the one thing I miss the most. We had a family. Me, Mike, and Aiden. Only... our family never became whole...


I do have amazing things in my life that help me get through each day. I have Aiden. He is my rock. He is what kept me going after Mike died, and he is what keeps me going!

I have my family and friends. Without them I would truly be lost. They are amazing.

And I have Andrew. The one who lets me cry on his shoulder about Mike and problems and has never done anything but listen. The one who treats my son as if he is his own. The one that puts a smile on my face everyday. Without him, I'm not sure I would be as strong as I have been.

Been a long while.

Well, finals week is here and of course I'm so excited! Mainly cause I'm DONE with Advanced Physiology as of today!!!! Yay!!! And I pulled a B for sure, maybe even an A! :):):) That was my hardest class yet!

Aiden is growing like a weed! I can now say he is officially a "walker" and not "trying to walk". lol Thank goodness for that! I am so happy he can walk around now! It's so cute and fun. He loves going to the park and walking around. He is just so proud when he does too! He'll stand up but he won;t start walking forward til he sees I'm watching, and when I start clapping he just smiles! It is adorable!

Here he is playing with his boo

k! 

He loves books more thank anything! 

Here is his first trip to the park to swing!!!

As you can see, he LOVED it! haha

And he loved the slide! 

Such a sweet little boy! I'm sure it's because I'm biased, but I believe there is no baby sweeter than mine! :):) I am very blessed! I wish everyday Mike could be here to see him. 

Whoa!!!!

So, I am fixing up this house next door to my mom's, and boyyy it's quite a job!!! The house is aolmost 120 yrs old! YEAH!!! OLD!!! But, I LOVE old houses and I love remodeling houses! I think it's because of Mike and the fascination he had with buying foreclosers and fixing them up. haha Anyhoo, It is a lot of work, but when you see the end result it is allll worth it. Andrew, Bill, mom, both the sisters, and a few friends have been helping. 

Andrew and the guys have been doing the hard stuff, like ripping out all the floors, ripping out the bathroom, and putting everything in the dumpster. I have been painting like a mad woman all spring break! I pulled a muscle in my shoulder, and mom swears it'a because of working on the house, but I don't think so.  Oh well, it'll feel better soon enough. I just can't wait to see what it's like when we finish! The floors start getting put down tomorrow so that's def exciting!!! I can't wait til we add the upstairs!!! It's gonna be sooooo cute!!! OH MY, OH MY, OH MY!!! I can't contain my excitement!!! haha

Here is a pic of the bathroom while Andrew and Bill were tearing it apart tonight! I'll post more when I take some more and I'll def post tons of "after" pics!!!

So my little baby angel Aiden has taken his first "real" steps this week!!! AMAZING!!! I wanna cry! He has been walking for about 6 or so steps and then he either meets his goal location, or he falls! But, either way he's trying!!! So cute! Hold onto your babies while you can girls, cause eventually they turn into little men like my baby Aiden! :(:(

P.S. Alicia, send me your # and your email cause somehow your number dissappeared off my phone which is why I have not called you back! And Holly, I NEED your # cause I don't have that either!! Please and thank you!!! :):)

Until next time! 

Little Dare Devil!!!

So Aiden did the funniest thing and I just have to blog about it!



So this morning I ran downstairs while Aiden was up in his play room watching his Baby Einstein and drinking his juice. I was down there maybe 3 minutes and when I came back up I found him being a little Dare Devil!!! He was standing on top of his toy box! I couldn't believe it! He isn't even walking yet, but h sure is climbing! lol Oh, makes me so proud!!! haha



Here is a pic. He sat down before I could get my phone out!

Us! :)

Mama took Baby Aiden's 1 yr. pics in his suit! Sooo Cute!!!!

Aiden has been doing great! He recently got tubes and that was a big relief for Mama cause he just wasn't a happy baby! He's done really well since he got them and he has become that baby I thought disappeared again! He's just so happy! I couldn't be more blessed! I swear I get that giddy feeling everytime I think about him! He's trying to walk, which he's not been successful at it yet! haha He can walk along everything, but when he tries to stand on his own he will for a second and then fall! It's okay though, he'll get it soon enough and then I'll be wishing he could only crawl again! He can kinda say "dog", "mama", and he can say "dada" which just breaks my heart everytime he does! Although, I am very glad that he can say it. I can't wait til he can actually understand what he's looking at when he looks at pictures of Mike! I'm so excited to teach him everything I can about his smart Papa!!!! I can't wait until it gets warm and I can take him to the park!

I have been in school for nursing ever since Mike passed away. I felt I needed to jump right into it. Still not sure if that was the best decision or not. It has been going really good though! This semester I am taking my last required class for the nursing program and a few others that will go toward the program, which I start int he Fall!! Yay!!! I have to say that Advanced Physiology is kicking my butt! But so did Microbiology and the other 2 Anatomy classes I've taken this past year and half! haha Oh well, it'll be worth it in the end!

Here's a little info on Mike and I: I met him when I was 15 and he was 18. Our 5 year anniversary was the the day before he died. He is the love of my life. We were married almost 1 year when he died. He was a graduate of Indiana University and a graduate student at Ohio State University. He was going to be a great dentist! I miss him more than I can ever explain, but I feel fortunate to have had the chance to love and be loved by such an amazing man!!! Also, he gave me the MOST beautiful son I could ever dream to have! He is someone I will never forget!