Life lately

Life has been pretty interesting lately. I have been going through a lot of changes. I started a new job that I really like. I'm trying to figure out where school fits in now. It may not for a little while unfortunately.


I miss Mike a lot lately. Not that I ever stopped missing him, but the pain subsides and then seems to return at the worst times. I would give anything to redo my life in Ohio just one more time. To be able to apprecaite all the little things about him that I loved and I now miss. The way he always kissed my forehead when he came to bed after me... which was every night since he was always studying late. The way the puppies would run to the bedroom in the mornings after I would let them inside and say to go get papa. The way I wish that right now Aiden could be calling Mike Papa. I miss that smile. Oh, that was an amazing smile!! I miss sitting in his lap, bugging him while he studied just so I could spend a little time with him. I miss having a plan. Having a family. That's the one thing I miss the most. We had a family. Me, Mike, and Aiden. Only... our family never became whole...


I do have amazing things in my life that help me get through each day. I have Aiden. He is my rock. He is what kept me going after Mike died, and he is what keeps me going!

I have my family and friends. Without them I would truly be lost. They are amazing.

And I have Andrew. The one who lets me cry on his shoulder about Mike and problems and has never done anything but listen. The one who treats my son as if he is his own. The one that puts a smile on my face everyday. Without him, I'm not sure I would be as strong as I have been.