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Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Wow... time flies.

So, I'm sitting at work and am actually awake at 3am... which is a stretch and very unimaginable for me. I figured I would update the blog since I haven't in sooooo long! Unfortunately, I won't be able to post any pics of my little man on this one since I'm on a work computer, but I will very soon.

I find it hard to believe that two and half years ago I was married, pregnant, and living a state away from all my friends and family. It seems to unreal how fast life can change. I seem to miss Mike more and more everyday. The thought that he would have been graduating and we would have begun a somewhat normal life this summer kinda depresses me. Well, more than "kinda". lol

I wish everyday that he could have seen Aiden. That we could be a family and be happy like we were. Unfortunately, I got hit with the bad luck stick and that could not be. I do find comfort in the relationship I am in right now. Andrew wants to make a family with me and he treats Aiden like he's his own, so that is a definite plus. But he can never take the place of Aiden's Papa... never.

I just started a job at the local hospital here. Although, the hours are not ideal since they are 12 hr shifts at night, but it gets my foot in the door. Not to mention this job made me NOT want to be a nurse! That's right.... I do NOT wanna be a nurse! I actually can't stand the thought of it after seeing the crap they have to put up with. So... my new professional endeavor will be Medical Image Technology! Yes, I could be the person taking your X-rays, MRI's, CT's, ultrasounds, ect. lol Or maybe I'll just be a professional student forever since I've been doing it for so long!

It's hard being a single mother and supporting Aiden on my own. It is definitely worth it, but stress really does follow. I hope one day my life can be back to normal and the stress I have felt on a daily basis since Mike left will go away. I'm sure it will. I'm so happy to see all of Mike's dental buddies about to graduate and go to new places with their families. I wish you all the best of luck!

Until Next time (and I promise pics soon!)